In my 20s I had a lot of stuff going on, which was the norm.
I had friends who were in trouble with the law, I had people who were going to prison, I was constantly dealing with other things.
But it was just getting better and better and I was starting to feel like I could be successful.
I was thinking: I can actually make it to the next level.
I got a job in a music business, got a degree, and I moved into a house in Adelaide where my mum was working as a counsellor.
I think that’s when my life really began to change.
I was working in a warehouse and I’d do shifts with the guys who worked in the warehouse.
I did a lot more retail and food stuff, and at the same time I was making money and doing a lot on the side, too.
I started to realise that if I kept working in retail and doing food work that would be okay, I could go back to work as a retail worker.
I would make money off of that, but I would be able to make a life for myself and have a career and then have some kids and then start to move out and live in a bigger house.
It was just a massive change, and the more I worked and the better I got at it, the more convinced I was that I could make it as a real adult.
It took me a while to realise I wasn’t making it, though, that I wasn: that there was a huge difference between having the money and having a good job.
I just thought: Why am I doing this?
It was the best thing that could have happened.
I started to think that there might be other options.
I had two kids, and it was like: “Okay, I’m going to make this decision, but it’s going to take me a little bit of time to do it.”
I had this really good job and it just got better and worse.
I worked really hard to try and get that right, and then I thought: Oh my god, if I can just get it right then I can make it.
I’ve always wanted to work in retail, and that’s where I’ve always gone, but this was my opportunity to make it happen.
I decided that I was going to go into a modelling agency and do what I wanted to do.
I didn’t want to go in and have to sit there and be like: I don’t want this job.
I wanted the experience.
And I really wanted to be part of it.
It’s a pretty crazy journey to be doing modelling, it’s not the kind of job that people usually do.
There’s a lot going on in the modelling world, it takes a lot out of you.
I didn’t have a job when I first got into modelling, but the opportunity to work with some really nice girls and a really good agent and some really cool guys was really, really exciting.
The first thing I wanted was to go back into modelling and work on stuff, but then I got pregnant, and things just kind of went downhill.
I’m still a bit of a perfectionist, but when you’re pregnant you have to be super precise and be super calm.
You have to do things in your own way, but that’s really what I’m doing now.
When I was pregnant I was in a bit more of a depression state.
I’d been working for so long that I just thought, I’ll just put this on hold and let it pass.
I went to a job interview and I looked really good, and someone else said: ‘What about you?
What are you doing?’
I said: I’m just modelling.
And then I did it.
It’s taken me a long time to get to that point, but now I have a really, truly amazing job.
The clients are fantastic and the agents are fantastic, and they’re helping me to grow and improve and to have a lot to look forward to.
It is a really big career change, but for me, the biggest thing is that I’ve been able to go out there and do whatever I want.
I’m not worrying about whether I’m a good model, or not.
I have my own life, my own career, and my own goals and ambitions, so when I go out into the world and say: I want to be a professional model, it gives me so much more control over my own lives.
It means I’m more in control of my life now.
I feel like a really creative person.